im writting to you my Lord becuase i have
not a lot of things left. i just want to tell you what i feel
right now, im hungry , with no money to buy anything,
my family doesnt have any money , barely making it, they
are ok, but in our case we are not, we live by the day, last time
i ate breakfast good was two or three days ago, and before that
there were a couple of days before that. i havent been able to eat dinner
only two days in a row since yesterday, today i didnt ate anything at all
i had a bread that my friend bought me , and i ate a tuna zandwich, with half
a can of tuna, oh lord i realise that we dont have money for food.
this is really not working , living away from my parents and on another city
it's not reallty wokirn out. we dont have a job and we have been looking for one.
everythung with my sister seems to be soo hard, when i do it by my own
seems to kinda work out at the end or eventually but she just seems
not reeally do anything planned out, just leave everything to fate and see
if it will work. i seriously i surrender my God i cannot continue like this any
further and if this is the fate you have for me then let it be, and i will follow
blindly. God i am left with no food, no money to being able to buy food, no
money to continue studying , no gilfriend like always and no hope at all....
no future dream, no future goal. my life goal and my dream
the one that my whole life was based on its shattered and knowing that
it will never ever, ever come true this is it God i have nothing left any more
please God i write this to you, help me.. i surrender to you

If It Means a Lot to You

I recently started a new term. After a long and uneventful vacations i'm finally back to school.
I couldn't be more happy and im looking forward to this new term. Expectations? well
i should said that i expect this term to be drama free compared to last one. Things are completely different compared to the last one as i am no longer in love with A. In regards to myself i couldn't
be more heartbroken to know that my dream will not come true. i prayed with all my heart to God so he could help me with this fundamental pillar in my life. At First he helped me but after a while everything froze down to the worse. I guess it is not in his wishes or maybe I'm not worthy of it. however i completely accept his command and i am at his mercy. Out of nowhere i was able to find A.M. and felt so exited like i have never felt before in my life. i could see my dream becoming true in front of my eyes. It was like everything was orchestrated to happen me finding her. I started to day dream again about what i wanted , and where i wanted to be. in this wonderful dream where i was close to someone so special, someone that i knew that was so unique that i have never seen in any other person. then i started to feedback about the past times when i first met her. i remember the first day i saw her i said to my own self she is a really pretty girl. A year passed and i was fortunate enough to have a class with her . Her attitude and her persona was the thing that amazed me the most. she was what i always wanted in a person. I just felt the need of being by her side, next to someone that was so different from everyone. words cant draw the pictures of my memory. it was something that it was just felt. whenever i would see her she would shine from the crowd. A quiet, shy girl that was humble and kind to anyone , specially me! When i departed the place that i now call home in my heart i always knew she was the only ONE that i wanted to spend the rest of my short life with. Returning to the present time, no matter what girl i liked i always thought about her and how much my heart belonged to her . Unfortunately you cannot say any of that because i am no one to say that or i have no right at all to be writing this words. after i found her again i thought my dream was going to come true, just to think about that futuree that i will fight for and that i would be sharing it with an amazing person it will just make my world rain of happiness. now that i see that such thing will never exist all i can feeel is nothingness in the inside. a great Void is left as i have no dream to fight for.thats it... this is it.... and nooooooo my Lord not at all i always praise youu no matter what and if you this is the fate you have for me , not to make my dream come true. then let it beee , and i would follow blindly i will always love you my God.

More than a Song

Thank you God, if it wasnt for your love i wouldnt be here,
there are no words in this world to express how much i love you and
how grateful i am for everything that you do , and do for all the people that i love
you always give me more than i could ask for more than enough
solo puedo imaginar con que reverencias el sumo sacerdote se acercaba al lugar santisimo
detras de ese velo la misma gloria de Dios moraba entre las alas de los querubines
el lugar de la propiciacion ese mueble santisimo que sirve como maximo simbolo
que Dios cumple sus promesas el arca del pacto que representa a un Dios de
pactos