im writting to you my Lord becuase i have
not a lot of things left. i just want to tell you what i feel
right now, im hungry , with no money to buy anything,
my family doesnt have any money , barely making it, they
are ok, but in our case we are not, we live by the day, last time
i ate breakfast good was two or three days ago, and before that
there were a couple of days before that. i havent been able to eat dinner
only two days in a row since yesterday, today i didnt ate anything at all
i had a bread that my friend bought me , and i ate a tuna zandwich, with half
a can of tuna, oh lord i realise that we dont have money for food.
this is really not working , living away from my parents and on another city
it's not reallty wokirn out. we dont have a job and we have been looking for one.
everythung with my sister seems to be soo hard, when i do it by my own
seems to kinda work out at the end or eventually but she just seems
not reeally do anything planned out, just leave everything to fate and see
if it will work. i seriously i surrender my God i cannot continue like this any
further and if this is the fate you have for me then let it be, and i will follow
blindly. God i am left with no food, no money to being able to buy food, no
money to continue studying , no gilfriend like always and no hope at all....
no future dream, no future goal. my life goal and my dream
the one that my whole life was based on its shattered and knowing that
it will never ever, ever come true this is it God i have nothing left any more
please God i write this to you, help me.. i surrender to you